I went to New York City, with my old boyfriend Matthew recently. We dated for about two years, until 6 months after my arrest. I told him I was uninterested in continuing to date him, because we live several states away. However, in reality, I preferred not to date him anymore, because he became physically unattractive to me over the years.
Yes, I realize all of this sounds very shallow. In reality, I think many people would like to stop having sex with a current partner, because they find them unattractive. Luckily, because I am polyamorous, if I find one partner too unattractive to have sex with them, I can take on a new partner, but still love the original one.
I still love Matthew. I just have a hard time seeing him naked, without becoming uneasy. Whenever we are together he goes on & on about us getting back together, even asking "Can we be lovers again?" I am definitely not interested in that. But, I do like hanging out with him.
What should I do? You I ditch him completely or continue to explain that I am not interested in having a romantic relationship with him & allow him to make the decision to see me or not?
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