A collision of worlds took place over the weekend. Thomas, my secondary boyfriend & sometimes boss, invited his employees out to dinner to pick up their checks from a particularly large job. While their, I sat next to Thomas & as usual he ignored me for the most part, as he turned his back to me & watched the game on TV, because he is very discreet & prefers other employees to not know we are having sex.
20 minutes into my meal & tall gentleman sat at our table & at first only spoke to Thomas, putting me in the middle of the conversation, because each of them was on either side of me & spoke to each other across the table. Eventually, the gentleman & I began to speak.
It turns out he was one of Thomas's best friends & business acquaintances. That concept is incredibly strange for me, because in the 11 years I have known Thomas I have never met someone in his personal life...ever.
Max & I had an instant connection. Although he proclaimed to be very shy, reminding me he sat in the corner of the room intentionally, he opened up to me about every facet of his world. We chatted two hours after everyone, including Thomas, had left. By the end of our evening, it was quite clear that we were interested in having sex with each other.
I explained to Max that I am polyamorous & I consider Thomas, his friend, my secondary boyfriend, although I have no idea how Thomas considers me. Because of that, in order to have sex with him, I have to have multiple conversations with multiple people, over multiple weeks. He grudgingly agreed. Before we parted, we exchanged cellphone numbers & hugs.
The next morning, Thomas emailed me, explaining Max wanted him to pass along his cellphone number to me, although I already had it. James, my primary boyfriend, explained that was a guy's way of finding out whether or not Thomas was okay with Max dating me.
This situation will lead to a very interesting conversation with me & Thomas. Because Thomas is not able to explain his emotions easily, he has never told me where we stand, in terms of our relationship. I do not know if he considers me his girlfriend, booty call, fuck buddy or what. I do not know if he gave me Max's number because he wants someone else to attempt to make me happy or because he really does not care enough about me to stop it. I have no idea.
The only way I can have this conversation with Thomas is in person, otherwise he will perceive it as rude. Sometimes I see him four times a week. Sometimes I see him once every 2 weeks. I have even seen him once in 6 months. So, I have no idea when the conversation will occur.
In the meantime, Max & I communicate by text daily & he tells me frequently, that he "just want to watch a movie & kiss". James, giggles at me, knowing only such a situation would occur in my life, as I add another disciple to my altar.
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