James, my primary boyfriend,
just told me that Debra Palfrey, “The DC Madam”, committed suicide
(http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2008-05-01-dcmadam-suicide_N.htm). I
am incredibly sad. She follows the same pattern as Brandy Britton
(http://www.crimelibrary.com/news/original/0207/0601_brandy_britton.html).
During her media attention, Debra said “I guess I'm made of something
that Brandy Britton wasn't made of." It was reported that Debra also
said she, too, was humiliated by her prostitution charges.
Am
I any different? I would like to think that I am. I am in no way
humiliated by my charges. In fact, once I was able to think clearly, I
realized how empowered I have been by the industry. I would never have
the confidence, financial security, or wonderful experiences without it.
In strongly believing that, I cannot be humiliated. Perhaps I am
humbled by my arrest, but not humiliated.
When I passed on the news to Matthew, my secondary boyfriend, by IM, he said:
Me: the dc madam committed suicide
Me: http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2008-05-01-dcmadam-suicide_N.htm
Matthew: aw damn
Matthew: You better not!
Me: she follows a pattern of arrested whores: http://www.crimelibrary.com/news/original/0207/0601_brandy_britton.html
Matthew: Yeah I know about her
Me: I don't think I will. Brandy & Debra both mention they were humiliated. I am not.
Me: I am empowered by the industry
Matthew: You're empowered in general.
Matthew: You're not only a phenomenal woman, you see no shame in the escorting industry.
Matthew: These are likely women who
felt sort of dirty about it in the first place & couldn't handle the
moral problems they faced from society's disapproval
Matthew: I mean for her, that seems to
make a satisfactory explanation...if it was just the fear of being
jailed she would have waited until after sentencing
Me: true
Matthew: yeah, "humiliated"
Matthew: that's not in the cards for you
Me: Perhaps I am humbled by my arrest, but not humiliated.
Matthew: I love you largely because you AREN'T
Me: humble?
Matthew: it's one of the most admirable facets of your personality.
Matthew: no, humiliated
Matthew: you make no apologies for who you are.
Matthew: your self-esteem doesn't get broken by other people's opinions of you
Matthew: that is so rare in women, and most men, it isn't funny
Me: thank you
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