Woman believed to be 'D.C. madam' commits suicide

James, my primary boyfriend, just told me that Debra Palfrey, “The DC Madam”, committed suicide (http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2008-05-01-dcmadam-suicide_N.htm). I am incredibly sad. She follows the same pattern as Brandy Britton (http://www.crimelibrary.com/news/original/0207/0601_brandy_britton.html). During her media attention, Debra said “I guess I'm made of something that Brandy Britton wasn't made of." It was reported that Debra also said she, too, was humiliated by her prostitution charges.

Am I any different? I would like to think that I am. I am in no way humiliated by my charges. In fact, once I was able to think clearly, I realized how empowered I have been by the industry. I would never have the confidence, financial security, or wonderful experiences without it. In strongly believing that, I cannot be humiliated. Perhaps I am humbled by my arrest, but not humiliated.

When I passed on the news to Matthew, my secondary boyfriend, by IM, he said:

Me: the dc madam committed suicide

Me: http://www.usatoday.com/news/nation/2008-05-01-dcmadam-suicide_N.htm

Matthew: aw damn

Matthew: You better not!

Me: she follows a pattern of arrested whores: http://www.crimelibrary.com/news/original/0207/0601_brandy_britton.html

Matthew: Yeah I know about her

Me: I don't think I will. Brandy & Debra both mention they were humiliated. I am not.

Me: I am empowered by the industry

Matthew: You're empowered in general.

Matthew: You're not only a phenomenal woman, you see no shame in the escorting industry.

Matthew: These are likely women who felt sort of dirty about it in the first place & couldn't handle the moral problems they faced from society's disapproval

Matthew: I mean for her, that seems to make a satisfactory explanation...if it was just the fear of being jailed she would have waited until after sentencing

Me: true

Matthew: yeah, "humiliated"

Matthew: that's not in the cards for you

Me: Perhaps I am humbled by my arrest, but not humiliated.

Matthew: I love you largely because you AREN'T

Me: humble?

Matthew: it's one of the most admirable facets of your personality.

Matthew: no, humiliated

Matthew: you make no apologies for who you are.

Matthew: your self-esteem doesn't get broken by other people's opinions of you

Matthew: that is so rare in women, and most men, it isn't funny

Me: thank you

 

Make Sure She Screws Herself

My attorney is puzzled that the originally arrest whore has remained in the industry after her arrest. At this point, we do not know whether or not she is testifying against me in court. In order to make sure she screws herself, if she does, I am in the process of finding a boy who has paid her for sex after her arrest. Obviously, this is a difficult thing to do, considering most boys are married & would not want to go to court to testify that they committed a crime.

My thought is if she does testify against me, my attorney will ask if she is still prostituting herself. More than likely she will answer no. After all, who would want to admit that in court? Then, we would have her client testify that he just saw her & paid for sex. We may be able to have all of testimony dismissed, because she perjured herself.

My attorney knows nothing of my plan. Legally, he cannot ask that someone commit a crime. However, what he doesn’t know will not kill him. On the other hand, she may not even testify against me.